Friday, January 26, 2007
well, just started clearing up my messy life. still feel kinda lost. its like i still dont know what i'm actually doing. told jl about my decision and stuff last week. felt really terrible that day. was quite scared but i guess i know he will not harm me. frankly, i did think that i may regret my decision one day. it's like i may not find another guy that likes me so much? i don't really know. hmm. i just know that right now it's too much for me to take. still, i seriously hope that we can still be friends. maybe not right now. but after some time.
really wish i can go back to few months back, when life for me is still great and almost perfect. right now i just feel that i've lost something in me. though i don't know what something that is, i know that it's something precious. =(
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meeting him later. hmm. dont know why keep thinking of him. grr..

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